In last Monday's post, someone made a comment that I felt deserved its own blog post, because it really is a good question.
Essentially, the question is, if the law of attraction is true, then why am I still blind?
The idea is, if the law of attraction really works, then my blindness should have been healed already. To the mind of this commenter, my blindness is proof either that (1) the law of attraction does not, indeed, work, or (2) I am not really successful in using the law of attraction.
I believe there are several misconceptions in the above logic, so I wanted to answer this question today, to hopefully start a discussion on the topic.
You can read the comment here, but I will also quote it below.
It makes no sense whatsoever that you'd say all this stuff about requests being answered and then casually mention that you have vision impairment…. as if we wouldn't notice??? Surely you asked to have that fixed - what happened? Universe said "nahhh, sorry, no response this time"....?
The universe sends you a car to pick you up in a moment's notice, but doesn't give you what you really want? Are you serious with this???? Do you think you're talking to imbeciles?
In case you're not familiar with my own story, I'll give it in brief, so we're all on the same page.
When I was four years old, I started losing vision in one of my eyes (I think the left, but I don't remember at this point). I was taken to an eye doctor, but no issues were found.
In April 1993, I was taken to Children's Hospital of Pittsburgh, PA. They performed an MRI, and discovered a brain tumor on my pituitary gland, about the size of a golf ball. For any medical types out there, the tumor was a craniopharyngioma. The partial blindness was due to the tumor pressing on the optic chiasm.
I stayed two weeks in the hospital, and had an extensive surgery of, I believe, 14 hours. Once surgery was over, my vision was completely gone, just like that. I didn't even have light perception, nor obviously do I to this day.
I remember bits and pieces of this period of my life. I remember parts of my hospital stay. I remember them having to take my blood quite frequently. I remember the time just before we left the hospital, and once we got back home.
I don't really remember whether I had a tough time transitioning. I don't believe so. I was told much later that in the following months, I would randomly see flashes of light, which would scare me pretty badly. But other than that, the transition wasn't too difficult. It was only about a year later that I started taking piano lessons.
In the years to come, I began school, learned to use a cane, and learned to read braille. All of it came pretty easily.
I had very few moments growing up where I wished I could see. I can remember maybe a handful of occasions where I had temporary sadness over it, but I moved on quickly. My philosophy always was, what's the purpose of being upset about something I can't control?
It never limited me very much, though. At 9 years old, I learned how to use the computer. Around the age of 11, I started teaching myself how to program and create websites.
Another one of my philosophies was that nothing was presumed impossible for me unless and until I tried it. Usually, I found a way to make it work. I used to even play certain video games on the Playstation.
Now, again, I tell this story to give you an idea of where I come from. It is rare I get so personal on this blog, but I think it's necessary for this post.
Now, I'll get into my main points.
Why Am I Still Blind?
I mentioned above that I don't see a reason to get upset over something I can't control.
But, some might argue, the law of attraction gives us the ability to control anything, right? If so, then why not change my condition?
You have to understand that those who ask this question are asking it from the perspective of a sighted person.
To a sighted person, it seems that blindness would be the end of the world. But to me, it's everyday life. I've been this way for 23 years now. I've adapted to it, and found a way to live life to the fullest despite this condition.
I know how it is, because to me, I couldn't imagine being deaf. And yet I know deaf people who are perfectly happy as they are. I've heard of deaf people who actually don't even want to hear again, even when the option is open to them.
I can't understand that personally, because I highly value my hearing. But I can relate, at least, because I'm much the same.
To a sighted person, blindness seems to be a deficiency. It makes us more dependent on others, and limits what we can do in life.
But to me, it's actually added a lot to my life.
First of all, in the years following my blindness, my spiritual awareness started to develop significantly. I started to be able to “see” spirits around me. I say “see” in quotes, because I don't really have a name for how I sense them.
I believe that when someone has all five senses active, they are immersed in the world. When one is so immersed, it is hard to open up to that which is beyond the physical.
Imagine you were in an incredibly realistic virtual reality system. At first, you might have awareness that it was indeed only virtual reality. But over time, because of the realism of the virtual world, you might start to forget that it wasn't actually real, or that there was actually a world beyond the virtual reality.
The physical world is that incredibly realistic virtual reality. When you are so immersed in it, it's easy to forget that it is not actually real, as such. You are a spiritual being, with incredible powers to create. But you tend to forget this, because it appears as though physical reality has complete control over you.
It's been relatively easier for me to see the reality beyond, if you will, and I think my blindness is part of that reason. I can more easily go within and separate myself from the world.
I also like that it's helped me to trust the Universe more. I've been placed in countless situations where I simply had to trust, because I didn't have the power on my own to do what I had to do, such as the example last week of finding a ride home from that event. I've had so many situations like that, that it becomes more or less second nature to simply give it over to the Universe. And, the Universe has never, not once, let me down.
By no means am I opposed to seeing again, if that opportunity were to arise. I'm simply saying that it's not a huge priority. There are many other things I desire more than my vision.
For instance, if someone were to offer me a choice between a successful coaching business where I got to help others, or my vision restored instantly, I'd choose the former without hesitation. It's just a much bigger desire for me.
If one day my bigger desires are all taken care of, and I'm looking for something else to manifest, then perhaps I would put more focus in this direction. But, for now, there are just more important things to me.
Everyone Has a Different Idea of the Perfect Life
The thing to realize is that everyone has a different idea of what a perfect life means to them.
Some people would love nothing more than to be millionaires with a private jet and yacht. Others just want to live a simple life with enough money to get by, and a bit for small luxuries.
Is the second group “wrong” for wanting different things? Have they just not expanded their mind enough, or dreamed big enough?
No. The goal of being a millionaire is not objectively better than the goal of living simply.
I am a natural leader. There was a time I believed that everyone, if given the chance, would want either to be the boss, or to work on their own.
But then Christine told me that she hated leading. She likes to follow others, and just do what she's told to do. I couldn't fathom that. I'd hate that kind of job.
But I realized that not everyone wants to lead. Some want to follow, and that's okay.
The same is true with my own condition. While it might look objectively worse to be blind than to be sighted, I would disagree. As I said, I've gained a lot from my condition. I believe there was some purpose that I went blind in this life, and that's acceptable to me.
Whatever your desires are, they are perfect for you. There is no need to justify your desires, or lack of other desires. Some people want to be single in life, and some want to be married, or anywhere in between. Some want to be millionaires, and others want to just provide for their family. Some want to be able to run a marathon, and others are okay with just walking to their car.
There is no “right” or “wrong” when it comes to desires. Your desires are your desires, and are perfect for you.
If I ever choose to manifest vision, that will be my choice. It is not a failure to remain as I am, and put my trust in the Universe to take care of me. It is not somehow hypocritical to manifest a ride home from an event, while still being visually impaired.
Similarly, if you have some health condition, and do want healing, this, too, is perfectly okay. You shouldn't have to want to remain the way you are. It doesn't mean you're stronger or a better person if you keep the health condition, nor does it mean you're weak if you want to change it.
Be as you are, and want what you want. The only requirement from the Universe is that you can accept where you are now, and set your intention without attachment. If you can do that, then you can do anything.
The Greater Purpose of Life
In the end, unlike what most LOA teachers will tell you, the Universe isn't here just to fulfill your desires. That's icing on the cake, but that's not its end.
Its goal, if you can really say it has a goal, is to lead you to freedom. Freedom doesn't mean physical health or financial abundance, as some might think. Freedom means what Lester Levenson would call imperturbability. It means unconditional happiness, no matter if you are sighted or visually impaired, healthy or sick, rich or poor.
Your nature, as I've pointed to in the past, is absolute Peace and Joy, independent of all outer conditions. The Self needs no conditions to be what it is.
Hindus call this nature Satcitānanda, meaning truth, consciousness, bliss. This is the experience of the Ultimate Reality.
Now, the more you connect with the true essence of who you are, the more your outer reality will reflect that perfection.
But, as I said, perfection means very different things to everyone. Every enlightened master isn't a billionaire, because they simply see no need to attain this goal.
Nor does it mean that a billionaire is an enlightened master, quite obviously.
I love the story of Lester Levenson for this reason. Upon enlightenment, he decided to become a millionaire, and did so in six months. Then, he decided he didn't need to be a millionaire after all, and left it all behind, determined to simply allow the Universe to provide for his needs as they arose.
Eventually, though, everyone dies. This is true, no matter how enlightened you are. Yes, there are legends of certain masters who are immortal, or who live for an incredibly long time. And I do believe that if you really determined to, free of resistance, you could likely increase the body's lifespan indefinitely.
But, it's not a failure to let sickness take over and finally to succumb to death. It's simply the next step of the journey.
No matter how free, how enlightened, or how aligned you are, you will die one day. All that you have now achieved will eventually pass away. I know this can seem morbid, but it's good to accept these facts.
That's why freedom is to realize our self-sufficient nature as it is, and then to enjoy worldly pleasures as the passing shadows they are, free of attachment or aversion of any kind. What comes is perfect, and what goes is perfect, too.
That's why to me, it's perfect if blindness is here, and it's perfect if vision is here. If one day I choose to playfully set the intention for vision, that'll be perfect, too.
This may not have even been a question on some people's minds. But, hopefully this post has clarified for you where I come from personally, and perhaps you can even apply it to your own situation in some way.
If indeed this was a question that crossed your mind, then I hope that this has suitably resolved it for you. If not, I'm happy to carry on this discussion in the comments.
And finally, thanks for reading my story. It was rather personal, so I appreciate everyone who reads through this post.
How About You?
Now it's your turn. Has this post clarified the law of attraction for you, and how it applies to us individually? This can be a pretty charged topic, but I'm looking forward to reading your thoughts in the comments.
Hopefully you know this by now because of my frankness and openness in the post, but do not hesitate to ask me any question about my blindness or how I have dealt with it. I know some sighted people hesitate, because they don't want to accidentally offend a blind person. But, I am not easily offended, so ask away. 🙂